Weekly thing is my series of quick reflections and plans. It goes out, as expected, at the end of every week. The aim is to use this consistent writing to give myself more grace and more inspiration when progress (in other things) is sluggish.
Hi friends,
I can't tell you how excited I am right now. I have absolutely nothing on my schedule for the next week, which means…I can sit at home and play Harvest Moon: Light of Hope the entire time!!☺️
Something I Did:
Usually, I would be having a mini-meltdown over getting a new obsession so soon after the last one (remember the B-grade mystery novels?), but my recent therapy session has given me a new outlook.
I'm letting myself fall into this obsessive state for the next 7 days, because she was not having my shitty attitude about losing time to these obsessions.
As long as it didn't affect my life1 very adversely for very long2…she didn't think it was a big deal. In the end, it became an illuminating conversation about:
The relation to perfectionism (or to me, completion-ism)
What types of obsessions seem valid to me (i.e. only ‘good’ productive ones are worth it, which is untrue)
How to learn when something is actually a big deal instead of purely listening to inaccurate external judgement
How to drop the moral superiority over my obsessions (which tend to be B-grade games/books)
Something I'm Doing:
So, my next steps, i.e. what I'm trying to do now, is to rewire my mindset slightly.
One method is, unsurprisingly for the points discussed above, to slowly deconstruct my feelings over moral superiority in media consumption.
However, that seems like a long-term solution, so for the short-term, I’m focusing on assigning some personal importance to playing/watching/reading these B-grade media.
This is what I'm telling myself: Life is complicated and messy and my mind is constantly processing too much, so why not allow these obsessions since they create blissful single-mindedness for a short period of time?
I've accomplished this change in mindset before in relation to the importance of gossip in society3, so I think I have a good chance of success. I just need to keep reminding myself to enjoy this whenever I start feeling worried about losing time!
Something I'm Thinking About:
I just realised that I’ve missed out on my Consumption post for August!! Damn. Gotta work on that tomorrow for sure.
I also have this really cute post about fun animated shows that I’m editing, so I’m looking forward to publishing it.
Another small thing on my mind is whether I should republish/import some of the stuff I wrote for Medium when I was in my ‘content creation’ era. Hmm. Plans on plans on plans…
See you soon,
Charing
Which, technically, not sleeping counted, but i didn't skip meet-ups, didn't skip eating, etc
Subjective, but she said 1 week was okay lol
Let me write about this more in another issue!